picture perfect?!

        I miss taking photos. 

        I have a roll of film which I haven't developed yet.  It's been sitting on my desk for almost a year.  I can't afford to have it developed.

        I can't afford to buy batteries for one digital camera that captures great color but I can never quite use correctly for low light conditions.  The other digital camera that I borrowed so I could take night photos has this horrible blinding flash that I never use anyway.  Of course, I can't use film.  I can't afford to buy film and even if I could I can't have them developed anyway.

       And the saddest thing about wanting to take good photos is knowing that the first handful of photos I took that recently got published in the newspaper will never be attributed to me.  And that those photos could very well be the only ones I took that will ever be published.

       AND as much as I want to take credit for them (because for crying out loud they are MINE and they captured the moment perfectly) I can't.  Because the person who wrote the newspaper article actually did a big favor to a number of people (including me) and I can't ruin all that by demanding photo credits right now.

       I don't want to act juvenile or angst-ridden, but today it sure sucks to be me.